Jim Carrey, 56, sat down with The Hollywood Reporter for a revealing chat about his disgust with Hollywood, and why he decided to return. He also shared insight into his troubled childhood.

The Dumb and Dumber star admitted that he "just didn’t want to be in the business anymore. I didn’t like what was happening, the corporations taking over and all that. And maybe it’s because I felt pulled toward a different type of creative outlet and 
I really liked the control of painting — of not having a committee in the way telling me what the idea must be to appeal to a four-quadrant whatever."

Carrey is making a return though, via Showtime’s Kidding. But he isn’t here "in the same way," he said. "I don’t feel I’m little Jim trying to hang on to a place in the stratosphere anymore — I don’t feel like I’m trying to hold on to anything."

Recently, Carrey has made a splash with his political cartoons lambasting President Donald Trump’s administration and current affairs (from his meeting with North Korea's Kim Jong Un to the Space Force).

"I didn’t know why I was doing it initially and, as usual, a year
 or two later, I wake up and realize that I’ve been given a spiritual answer through it," he commented. "I’ve been on the journey of identity, 
of who am I, and that’s it. That’s the question. If there’s an ‘it’ in this world, it’s ‘Who am I?’ There is no ‘I,’ and yet it has a shape. 
See what I mean?"


Carrey also talked about his painful past, revealing that his mother battled addiction for most of his childhood.

"My mom was addicted to pain medication. She was very sick in a lot of ways. She was lovely, too, but she was a child 
of alcoholics and she had issues. And that’s not intentional abandonment — she was always there for me, she was always there in the house — but if you’re high on painkillers, that’s abandonment. 
I guess we’re all abandoned to 
a certain extent, all of us in some way or another by something 
or someone, and that forms in us our belief about ourselves," the actor added.

As a result, he says he started running with a tough crowd, his grades suffered and he began to"blame the world" for his family’s issues. But things started to look up when his out of work father, mother and three siblings packed up and hit the road in a VW van.

"We lived in campgrounds 
or we lived on my sister’s lawn way out in the country and, sure, it got cold in the tent, but in a weird way 
it was a much happier time," the Bruce Almighty star said.